I'm starting to realize just what "this world" is really about. Everything from government and economy, to the scientific/technical level of our existence. And it's all incredibly fascinating and scary as hell.

This is all part of the "awakening" I've been going through. And I know that word has a meaning associated with "hippies" and "weirdos" and "conspiracy theorists", but I don't care because I know in my heart of hearts that what I feel is right...and how do I know that? Because what I feel is right. And when you understand that, you'll know what I mean.

I never thought that I would be (and I hate to divide people into groups) 'one of those people' who see life in this way. I was always the kind of person who, on occasion, thought outside the box and saw things in a different way, but that was just scratching the surface of what is really going on. But I was happy with just that; a sliver of awareness. And other than that, I went about my life thinking I was either in control or at least had a grasp on reality.

But I was wrong.

This world is ours and instead of embracing our true light and individuality, we conform and obey.

I know, I know. Big Brother type talk. But I really see it as a truth. I really believe everyone (myself still included) are blindly following the norm. There are some who go against the grain all the time (not some or most of the time, like I still tend to do), and those people are the ones who most of society call "crazy", "weird", "annoying", "anti-establishment", etc. And you know what...I like those people.

How or why would anyone ever shun or mock someone for being true to themselves. I wish I had the courage to not care what I wear or how I am perceived by others. I wish I could be more like Allison, really. If you don't know her, then you're missing out on knowing one of the coolest, sweetest, most honest person I know. And don't get me wrong, she has faults and can piss me off at times just as anyone can, but she's unappologetic of her actions when she truly believes in what she does...even if it's against what's "popular" or "favorable" at the time.

Man, I'm "quoting" a lot in this blog, aren't I?

So as I was saying, I'm trying - so trying - to keep this mindset clear. Because right now I am the clearest I've been in a long time, and I don't want to lose this.

Sidenote: I don't know about you and where you live, but for the last TWO MONTHS, there have been helicopters (most military) flying over my neighborhood. EVERY-FUCKING-DAY!!! And sirens, at least once day, in my neighborhood. Where before that, hardly ever.

And as much as I try to ignore it, or not let it freak me out...it's starting to. Is it too silly to imagine a military state? A police state?

Some people will probably say I'm over-reacting. That everything is fine. And I hope you're right, but I feel something big is on the horizon. And it's not going to be pretty.

But the good thing is that this ugly thing that will happen is only temporary and, unfortunately, necessary for us as a society to come together and truly be a single, living, breathing culture. No borders, no races; just people.

I just hope the transition is quick. I'd like to say painless, but I don't forsee that part happening. Pain is inevitable.

Well, this was really an uplifting little entry, wasn't it.

I don't want you to think I'm a pescimist who thinks the world will blow itself up; on the contarty, I think the world will wake itself up. It's like sleeping through a nightmare; what's the scariest part of a nightmare? The moment just before you wake up. I think that's where we are now. We are right at the point just before that moment. That very soon something big and scary will have to happen for us to wake up out of this global and societal nightmare and realize what's been going on. So no, I'm not a doomsdayer, I'm excited to see what the world will become.

And you know what else I realized...? That the world will - not could or might - but will become excatly what we've always wanted it to; a beautiful place. Just that. Beautiful. No war, no hate, no failed government, no fucked up economy; just beautiful.

All I ask is that you all truly believe that. Because the more that do, the more it will. And even if you are thinking, "This is horseshit, hippie crap", that's fine. But what harm will it do to just think that? Just think of a beautiful world. Hell, you don't have to physcially do anything, only imagine and believe it. That's the easiest thing in the world to do.

Alright kids, I'm off. Much love and laughter to you all.

3/21/12
Wow, so sorry about that. I got REALLY side tracked...about a week or so worth of side-tracking.

Annnnnyway....

Without going into incredible detail (only because it would take me a week to type out everything that I've been through; more emotionally & mentally), I can tell you that my world has been officially rocked & changed for the better. Allison and I have come to an amazing place and we couldn't be more excited.

Again, not too much detail; all I'll say is there is a new paradigm approaching and we are getting ready for it. Please, everyone who is reading this, just do some research into the economy and TRULY what is happening. Don't listen to the mainstream news (network TV & major newspapers), it's all bullshit; go online and look up really facts, while we're still able to do so.

OK. I'm off my soapbox. But please do.

I know what you're probably thinking, "Hey joke-boy, stop with all this 'economy' hooey, and get to the funny". My god, you people are demanding. Here's something funny for ya:

That was from my Swedish tour a few months ago; but it's funny, no?

Actually, since recording that show I've changed the joke, so it works even better now. That's something that sucks about when a new joke works, I get so excited I post it and then when the joke gets even better, I feel silly reposting it. So just know that when you see me live, and if I do this joke, it will be different, so it should be even funnier to you. On second thought maybe it is better this way, you think you'll know what I'm going to say, then - BAM! - I go somewhere else.

You're welcome.

Shit, I hate to stop this blog now, but I've got to get ready to do a show...and after the week I've had; it doesn't seem so important. Not just this blog, but the show.

My eyes is open.

Later kids. And please remember this: You're world is TRULY what you want it to be. This isn't some hippie/psychic/voodoo kind of statement, I mean this with every ounce of seriousness in my words and energy in my soul; you HONEST TO GOD (who is you), YOU MAKE YOU'RE REALITY. YOU DECIDE IT. Love yourself and know your worth and KNOW that you are deserving of your dreams, they will happen. Trust me, I know. They're happening for me as we speak. :)

Love and laughter kids.

3/12/12
At this point I'm going to stop commenting whenever I slack on my blog. I don't need to keep apologizing for a lack of blogging, do I? People get busy, and I'm people. So there....but still, sorry. :)

So the movie I did, Breaking Wind, comes out in a couple of weeks; March 27. I'm excited. I just found the first few minutes posted online...and one of my scenes are in it. If you want to get to just me, fast forward to 3:10. Here it is:

Not an Oscar winning movie; I think the target audience would be more stoner/college students/people with sick, silly senses on humor. Knowing this, I think it will be quite enjoyable.

Anyway...things have been going really well over here.